I haven’t been part of a women’s Bible study in years. And I really miss it. Which is why I told my husband, “This year, things are going to be different. I’m going to make it a priority. I want to do this. I need to do this.”
So I signed up for a Tuesday night study and faithfully attended the first week. I even had to sign a “commitment” sheet and declared I would do my best to achieve regular attendance.
The second week, I was out of town on business.
The third week, I looked at the evening calendar and quickly realized I would have to hire a babysitter or clone myself in order to get three kids to three different evening events.
So I said to my husband, “I think I’m going to drop out of Bible study, what do you think?”
Part of me wanted him to tell me I had to quit. That signing up for another evening event is stupid. That hiring a babysitter to run the kids around in the evenings is a foolish use of our resources. And that being with the kids right now is the better use of my time.
But he didn’t.
He responded, “Do whatever you think is best.” (It’s called reverse psychology -- and it gets me every time.)
Great, I actually have to make this decision myself. I can’t blame him for holding me back.
I didn’t want to drop out. I’m not a quitter, but I just can’t justify the evenings away from my family during this busy season of motherhood. Can anyone relate?
Maybe next year.
Does this season of life have you making some hard personal choices?