I love unexpected windows. And I don’t just open them, I usually jump right through them.
What kind of windows am I talking about? For the most part, it’s unplanned blocks of time that I didn’t anticipate.
A couple of weeks ago, I took the day off for “oral surgery.” I was dreading the day for several reasons. For the record, I really hate going to the dentist. I also hate doing “nothing." It would be a lost day – a big waste of time!
After an early surgery, I was surprised to be sitting at home at 9:30 a.m. And I didn’t really feel that bad. I was too drugged to work. No clients were expecting me to return calls. No kids were expecting me to take care of them. Nobody had a single expectation on my time. Not even me.
Wow, an unexpected window. A free day. A day to do nothing.
But wait a minute. I hate doing nothing! I know, I know, I need to get with the program. Nothing is in. Even a recent Harvard Business Blog talks about the benefits of doing nothing. But it still doesn't come easy for me. Nothing is hard work.
It's one thing to enjoy an unexpected window when you have a clear head (and a working jaw). It's another thing when you are stuck with an ice pack and a fat lip.
So, did I just sit and do nothing? Of course not. I was getting really bored, so I decided to go to lunch with Doug. So what if I couldn’t eat – I’ve never been very good at following doctor’s orders, and I was starting to get hungry. Plus, I had to make the most of my newly found commodity. Time.
But lunch didn't taste very good. I thought about shopping, but my head was really spinning. So I went home and sat in silence. That's right, I did a little bit of nothing. And it felt really good. The day went incredibly slow. And then it was over. And then I asked myself where the time doing nothing had gone.
I’m the kind of person that never plans to do nothing. But sometimes God gives me unexpected windows. And then I’m reminded that nothing is really something.
Nothing is pure grace.