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Wednesday, March 30, 2011

What Is A Son?

[Nick, my firstborn, turns 10 today.  My heart is full and my hands are lifted.  I’m so grateful to be his mother.]


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A Son is Joy.  He keeps my glass full.  He brings a smile to my face.  His spark quickly changes my mood, showing me the goodness in the moment and the divine on the ordinary.

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A Son is Laughter.  He has that charming yet ridiculous boyish sense of humor.  He wears mirrored glasses and a shower cap in the airport.  Just for fun.  He tells silly jokes I will never fully understand.  But I still laugh.  Hard.

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A Son is Pain.  I hurt when he hurts.  I watch him learn lessons and I want to intervene.  But I don’t.  I hold back, knowing that God is in control.  Not me.  I watch him grow and mature and my heart aches, knowing that I must let go.  Again and again.

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A Son is a Mirror.  When I look at him, I see my strengths. And my weaknesses. I see the possibilities – the hopes and the dreams.  He brings out the best in me, and sometimes the worst.  I can’t help but stare.  I don’t look away.

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A Son is a Companion.  He’s my back-seat driver, my biggest critic, and my biggest fan.  He invites me to build a sand castle.  I can't say no, even though I hate getting my hands dirty.  He’s my night owl who stays up with me late and asks me tough questions about life and faith.  He pours out his heart.  I am his confidant, and I reciprocate his trust.  

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A Son is a Gift.  He has been entrusted to me for a time.  I want to give him my best, and I don’t want to screw up this privilege called motherhood.  He is a gift from God.  He is pure grace, and through my son I experience the deepest love of the Father.  

For the last 10 years, I have humbly held my son.  But he is getting too big to hold.  So instead I walk beside him and trust that the Father will hold us both.

Happy Birthday, my son. 

9 comments:

Heidiopia said...

Beautiful. And too soon you'll be looking up at him as you walk beside him. :)
Hope he has a blessed day!

Laura@OutnumberedMom said...

Oh yes...He'll hold you both. Hard to believe anyone loves them more than we do -- but the Father does. This was lovely.

Happy Birthday, Nick!

Julie Cragon said...

Happy Birthday Nick!

Erin said...

Happy Birthday Nick! This is such a beautiful post.

Linda Snyder said...

What a wonderful way to honor your son on his BIG 10th birthday! This is a beautiful reminder (as if he needs one) how wanted, loved, and appreciated he is. I am grateful that you made me think of my own dear sons who are 38 and 34, and STILL what a gift from God they (and their families) continue to be in my life! Happy Day to Nick! Besides, being a really neat kid, your mom is pretty great too!

Wendy Paine Miller said...

I don't know why but this brought tears to my eyes...

I always thought I'd be a good mom to a son, but God had different plans.

Such an endearing post!

HB to your son!
~ Wendy

Keli Gwyn said...

Happy birthday to Nick. I hope you have a wonderful time helping him celebrate his Double Digits Day.

Susan DiMickele said...

Thank you my friends. I am so grateful. Headed home from work to make him dinner!

Joanne@ Blessed... said...

awwww, this was precious. What a cutie pie he is.