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Wednesday, March 30, 2011

What Is A Son?

[Nick, my firstborn, turns 10 today.  My heart is full and my hands are lifted.  I’m so grateful to be his mother.]

A Son is Joy.  He keeps my glass full.  He brings a smile to my face.  His spark quickly changes my mood, showing me the goodness in the moment and the divine on the ordinary.

A Son is Laughter.  He has that charming yet ridiculous boyish sense of humor.  He wears mirrored glasses and a shower cap in the airport.  Just for fun.  He tells silly jokes I will never fully understand.  But I still laugh.  Hard.

A Son is Pain.  I hurt when he hurts.  I watch him learn lessons and I want to intervene.  But I don’t.  I hold back, knowing that God is in control.  Not me.  I watch him grow and mature and my heart aches, knowing that I must let go.  Again and again.

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A Son is a Mirror.  When I look at him, I see my strengths. And my weaknesses. I see the possibilities – the hopes and the dreams.  He brings out the best in me, and sometimes the worst.  I can’t help but stare.  I don’t look away.

A Son is a Companion.  He’s my back-seat driver, my biggest critic, and my biggest fan.  He invites me to build a sand castle.  I can't say no, even though I hate getting my hands dirty.  He’s my night owl who stays up with me late and asks me tough questions about life and faith.  He pours out his heart.  I am his confidant, and I reciprocate his trust.  

A Son is a Gift.  He has been entrusted to me for a time.  I want to give him my best, and I don’t want to screw up this privilege called motherhood.  He is a gift from God.  He is pure grace, and through my son I experience the deepest love of the Father.  

For the last 10 years, I have humbly held my son.  But he is getting too big to hold.  So instead I walk beside him and trust that the Father will hold us both.

Happy Birthday, my son. 


Heidiopia said...

Beautiful. And too soon you'll be looking up at him as you walk beside him. :)
Hope he has a blessed day!

Laura@OutnumberedMom said...

Oh yes...He'll hold you both. Hard to believe anyone loves them more than we do -- but the Father does. This was lovely.

Happy Birthday, Nick!

Julie Cragon said...

Happy Birthday Nick!

Erin said...

Happy Birthday Nick! This is such a beautiful post.

Linda Snyder said...

What a wonderful way to honor your son on his BIG 10th birthday! This is a beautiful reminder (as if he needs one) how wanted, loved, and appreciated he is. I am grateful that you made me think of my own dear sons who are 38 and 34, and STILL what a gift from God they (and their families) continue to be in my life! Happy Day to Nick! Besides, being a really neat kid, your mom is pretty great too!

Wendy Paine Miller said...

I don't know why but this brought tears to my eyes...

I always thought I'd be a good mom to a son, but God had different plans.

Such an endearing post!

HB to your son!
~ Wendy

Keli Gwyn said...

Happy birthday to Nick. I hope you have a wonderful time helping him celebrate his Double Digits Day.

Susan DiMickele said...

Thank you my friends. I am so grateful. Headed home from work to make him dinner!

Joanne@ Blessed... said...

awwww, this was precious. What a cutie pie he is.